My childhood ambition was to become an air stewardess.
Since I was a little girl, right up to just several years ago, I’ve always wanted to be an air stewardess. Not because I hankered after the prestige of being a Singapore Girl (what we call our Singapore Airlines female flight attendants), neither was it because I craved fitting my body into a tight-fitting kebaya, nor did I care about flying the international skies.
Actually, come to think of it, I didn’t have any real motivation behind my ambition, except for the fact that I saw my favorite kindergarten teacher, Teacher Lily, leave her teaching job to become an SQ flight attendant when I was in primary school. She loved me very much and was the ideal super beautiful face with a slender body kind of woman. I was in kindergarten but I knew beauty when I saw it.
The dream became more and more unrealizable as I finally had to resign to fate that I would never grow beyond 155cm. Lol.
When I travel, I never put anything in the overhead compartments because I CANNOT REACH THEM. HAHAHA! Laugh lah laugh lah!
Anyway, look at how awesome my skin looks in the picture. I don’t have super awesome skin, but at least there were no humongous, angry pimples on my cheeks two weeks ago. Now there are FIVE BIG, BUBBLING, BOILING, PULSATING, RED PIMPLES. *burst out crying
Okie, enough drama. Let’s get on with the makeup tutorial, shall we?
EYE MAKEUP
Eyeshadow Primer – UDPP Eden
Eyelid – Sugarpill Flamepoint (Middle), MAC Parfait Amour (Outer 1/3)
Inner Corner – Makeup Geek Shimma Shimma
Contour Area – MAC Parfait Amour, MAC Satin Taupe
Outer V – MAC Satin Taupe
Highlight – MAC Shroom
Lower Lash Line – NYX Mermaid
Eyeliner – Pupa Eyeliner Pencil. I super love this eyeliner coz you can never really predict how it will turn out. Sometimes it turns out teal, sometimes dark green, sometimes blue, sometimes grey. I would recommend it to anyone who loves a good eyeliner!
Eyelash Primer – Dior Diorshow Maximizer
Mascara – Lancome Hypnose Doll Eyes
Eyebrow – Lioele Auto Eyebrow 01 Natural Brown. I only had on the Lioele Eyebrow pencil, thus my brows look slightly dark against my golden-brown hair. Normally I would apply Kate Eyebrow Color on top.
If you look at my air stewardess wannabe photo, you cannot see the orange eyeshadow due to my hooded eyelids. That’s one great thing about having hooded eyelids, there’s always the surprise element when you blink! It makes people want to look at you more to catch that surprise again. So love your hoods, ladies! 
Actually I’ve never seen a Singapore air stewardess sport orange eye makeup. Usually it’s shades of blue and green, probably to match the uniform. But you see, I’m a wannabe, and wannabes can do whatever they want. And they always have red lips. That’s one more obstruction to me ever being a flight attendant – I cannot rock red lips, I will look like a geisha!
FACE MAKEUP
Primer – Monistat. It’s Monistat forever.
Foundation – Bourjois 123 Perfect Foundation. This is my new love!
Cheeks – Clio Art Blusher
LIP MAKEUP
Lip Balm – Dermalogica Lip Treatment
Lipstick – MAC See Sheer, Lancome De Brilliance Lip Gloss
Goodbye, Teacher Lily
*clears throat
I did not create this look or decide to write this post with the intention to talk about flight attendants or Teacher Lily, it just came to me the moment I started writing. But since I got started, I might as well tell you more about Teacher Lily.
On the last day of my exams in university, my friends and I were celebrating with slabs of pizza in our student lounge. Then I received an email from my mum. She told me Teacher Lily had passed away from breast cancer. I was shocked beyond words and just stared at my laptop screen for the longest time without blinking. And then I started crying and my friends all hushed and did not know how to react.
She had died a month ago but my mum kept it until after my exams so as not to distract me. She was right, I would never have been able to study at all; I cried for a long time.
You know that guilt of not visiting someone you’ve long wanted to and then that someone just leaves you forever? I was drowning in that guilt. We lost contact after that one time when we visited her in primary school.
Even now, I still feel sad whenever I think of Teacher Lily, my beautiful teacher who loved me so much.
Rest in peace, Teacher Lily. Thank you for loving me, and I love you.
What was your childhood ambition? Did you have someone like my Teacher Lily in your life? Someone you regret not loving more when he/she was still alive?
